rc | week 6/(+ 6 6) | "i don't want to end [it] this way"
I had been considering extending my batch off-and-on for about 3 weeks and finally, after weighing the pros and cons, I decided to keep going. In this post, I'll explain my thought-process behind this and what I expect to do with the extra time.
I'm halfway through my batch. And like most others at this point, I'm seriously questioning what it is I'm planning on achieving between now and the finish line. As much as I want to continue pursuing my embedded project, it seems increasingly unlikely that I'll be making satisfactory progress on that in the remaining three weeks. But thankfully, I found something I'm really interested in pursuing, and it should be achievable in the remaining weeks, maybe.
It was Thursday night, I was reflecting on my day when I felt something break inside me. Not like breaking a bone, but like breaking a thread which compromises integrity of the seam. I thought I was doing well, finding a balance, settling into a good routine, etc. But it became clear the more I investigated what I was feeling that I was actually putting an unsustainable amount of pressure on myself. I needed to be kinder to myself, but what does that even mean?